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huh! after a while, managed to get some stuff into my other lonely, isolated blog (rojak poetry that is). looks like i'm letting something out of me after so long!!! just check out my poetry blog: http://rojakpoe3.blogspot.com have fun (and i mean LOADSA FUN !!!) ppl!!!

i will be away...in kuching...just to relax my tousled up mind & emotions :) pls do not miss me... i'll be back with more materials (hopefully) currently i'm assisting my former ASK lecturer (more likely being his research assistant or RA) for his PhD thesis. progress in 2 months' time.

characters:a girl, mother, father, doctor the story focuses on the girl & whtever she's going through in her coma. a girl , probably 9 or 10 yrs old lying in a hospital bed, admitted for about 3 days because she had acute asthma. her face is off white & her lips are bluish. she's on oxygen gas & life support & her parents are beside her, hoping & praying to God that she'll make it through. as she lay unconscious in bed, she had dreams/ visions - sees her parents - quarrelling, disagreeing with each other over issues (upset with in-laws, work conflict, relative rivalry, etc.)mother repeatedly shouting out for a divorce whilst father was being extra patience with mother. all these happened mostly without her knowing her parents fought as both parents didnt show any signs of tension/discomfort to one another. each day/night, in her dreams, the girl will see how the relationship between her parents worsen & each time she sees these tears rolling out of h...

well, well, well... after my long M.I.A., i've finally got something right (at least, that's how i wish & hope it would be!) ...getting back onto the right track, plus getting busy. activities as follows: MARCH '05 13/03/05: submit finished mock-up model to friend in ASK (friend's favor) 17/03/05: UM's theatre prod. bump-in, 8am @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya 18/03/05: lights rigging, adjusting & focusing & plotting session : run through + technical rehearsal(s) 19/03/05: SHOW TIME, 8.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya 20/03/05: SHOW TIME, 3.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya APRIL '05 - free!!! except for ASK classes, that is... MAY '05 mid-May (most probably around 24/5/05): rehearsals for ASK production "PROTES" sundays: ASK classes @ 2pm... this' what happens if you're the kinda person who love's to skip classes... :P also somewhere in May: office's short perfromance...

1) screwed! improvised well, this more or less the same story as my previous post only i'd figure it's better to be direct,straight-into-your-face kinda stuff. take your pick ppl!! screwed! scene : in an isolated room in an asylum. a girl stared into the blank space in front of her, emotionless. there's a distant yet crystal-clear voice saying, "you've hurt me so deeply & it's funny that you still have your daughter & wife with you. you've used me so much i felt isolated, perhaps alienated from everyone else, including my family. worse of all, you despised my circle of friends for what they are but you are no better yourself. you are no womaniser but you are the Dajjal yourself, using your so-called piousness to deceit the whole world, even women. you are a destroyer & i hope that God'll forgive you for all the sins you've done & the damage you've made. i'll never forgive you for what you've done to me & i pity yo...

my activities which involves the arts scene (or theatre most likely): january (saturdays & sundays) : attend part time classes @ The National Arts Academy (aka ASK) in Theatre Tech. if there are no classes, i usually hang around @ the institute watching my friends running their rehearsals. march (19-20/3/05) : involve into my friend's final year project - lighting design (my fav.!). rumours have it performed @ Auditorium Jab. Perdana Menteri Putrajaya. hmm.... *UPDATE* Final year project "The MAgic Feather Boa" performing @ Auditorium JAbatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya, 19-20/3/05. Times TBC. april : involve into ASK final year student's project. Date(s) & time(s) TBC. june : help another friend of mine with his project in ASK. TBC. hmm...when am i suppose to get active back in VTC??? most probably after i've finished my short term classes in ASK, i hope.

i need a calendar in this blog 2 keep track of my activities (do i hv any?!). v. occupied with work until i forgot 2 update this lonely, isolated blog of mine (isn't this supposed 2 be my e-journal 4 VTC???). my rough activities outline (so i think it should b called): December 04: managed to be employed into my new work @ HSBC Cyberjaya (wk1) : managed to attend VTC's classes (wks 2,3) : bz @ work (induction training) (wk 4) January 05 : enrolled into ASK short course (wk1) : just finished my induction & being deployed 2 USA dept (wks 2-4) - need 2 adjust my body clock according 2 USA online time sadly, i've got insufficient time 2 "indulge" myself actively in any theatre/arts performances due 2 my crazy schedule (i asked 4 it didn't i?). i'm still figuring things out & reshuffling my time, which i...

ensemble work man... how to say this? hm...ok, fine - i totally lost it! so much 4 the discussion w/my team mate azhar. i lost it for about a moment of eternity there. it seemed forever, since i've been too atached w/my new workplace. but anyways, not 2 broken hearted - all comments are taken positively, thanx 2 the members of the floor & victor's comments. moral of the story? all work & no play makes alia a zombie gal of the day (or night)!! ppl, pls don't end up like me...PLEASE I BEG U!!!

i wish that this year i'll be more focused (i try to!) , mature (hmmm...) & hopefully be a 1000x better than i was previous years ago (wow, that's quite sometime ain't it?) btw...i was thinking of creating a new blog, most probably a poetry blog..got the idea this evening & perhaps get some people to contribute/share their poems on this particular blog. anyone can comment each other's piece. i think i should create the blog NOW.

final day of the week... looking forward into the weekend, get good rest & prepare myself for the VTC session this Sat. man...i'm so goddamn tired slept in the bus all the way back home. oh, my revised/ revamped script - cut short to 2mins. so have to be straight forward then...gotta crack me useless brain to squeeze out its juices later today...need some rest before rewriting the whole goddamn thing. contd... 11/12/04 interesting session. got most "confessions" out of everyone, including me. no more hiding frm ppl, nor afraid of anything else. most members are becoming more & more closer now,that's good.

hello ppl! 1st of all, thanx paik yin, i think i should advertise my blog link right in this very post. it's http://babblesnramblings.blogspot.com like ghafir, i'm also new into all these blogging stuff, so i guess i'll take it slowly & gently at a time.. hmm....how should i start??? after all the evaluation conundrums (shall i just ditch the word evaluation & just call it frantic self-check???) we all went thru (or maybe it was just me??i bet everyone's feeling the same ya) , i realise tht it takes more than just plain jump off the cliff...it depends on each & every individual on how they confront/handle the situation (or tension, rather).as for me, i realise tht i can indulge into something very, very, VERY DEEPLY & i personally find it dificult 2 let go of things/memories until i realise i need 2 move on. i'm saying this because i felt a big pang after the individual "self-check". i also said this because i've always been pa...

frm victor via email, Tue, 30 Nov 2004 09:23:51 -0800 (PST): ;-) nice to know there are ppl who appriciate our efforts... ill be abroad for the weekend. so hope you guys get the best out of Ghfir's workshop.. ask all u can.. next week when we get together, lets review the evaluation and improve on all yer pieces.. also nice to know some ppl have started to open up.... we need more of that guys.. toodaloo....cherios .. and cornflakes.. frm square via youth.arm blog, 11/30/2004 07:41:57 PM: "i did mention to square why i didn't do much acting during my "U" days. i told him i feel easily frustrated if i don't fulfill the character's "body & emotion"...well, here's my answer. i'm afraid to indulge/attach deeply into characters tht partially represents my TRUE emotions; i'm afraid 2 let all the skeletons in my closet out & i let them haunt me the rest of my entire life!! scary, isn't it?" I think most...

ok! welcome to my blog. hopefully with this new web blog, i'm able to add & create new post just to update myself & perhaps others (if you guys are able to add some input as a reminder to me, i really appreciate 'em v.much). any comments etc. are warmly welcomed here. & i don't mind if you guys kutuk me in my own blog. i'm beign dead honest here. 'nuff said. the rest is up to you ppl.