It has been awhile (too long, in fact) since I wrote anything in this blog. Anyway, being a daughter and under care of parents, I have been nagged quite a number of times (too much I believe) to stabilize myself so that I can help my parents to support myself and other siblings, and of course, my parents. I believe it is everyone's responsibilities to pay gratitude to their parents and take care of them in return.
However, when I told them I wanted to pursue my ambition as a lighting designer, the reaction I got from my dad was, "Oh, so that's like, struggling for an electric engineer post." At first I ignored that tell-tale signs. As I return home for the Eid Mubarak festive and stayed at my parents' for awhile, again the subject was brought up.
I kept this to myself, "Why is it so difficult to be a lighting designer here (in Malaysia)?" Well, possible reason(s) would be:
- It's a men's world out there. Only individuals with Electrical qualifications can do the job.
- The theatre scene here is S.L.O.W. ... More work to be done here. Theatre is considered non-profitable at the moment; hardly any performances get profit from tickets' sales in comparison to movies' tickets' sales.
- Skepticism... "Can a gal do lights/technical theatre?" Yes, I got this from a friend of mine who persuaded me to design lights for his show. I also got the same response from other events' contractors such as ShowGear, Orange Events. But again, they pointed out that there are girls that do audio visual work like laying cables, followspot operators, soundperson out there only that they are not highlighted and/or they are still a minority.
So what I am going to is...
DO WHAT I BELIEVE IS BEST & STRIVE FOR IT!!!