e-Me

kerana cinta , sayang dan rindu maka ramai yang menderita, merana juga terpedaya. kerana tiga perkataan inilah manusia jadi bingung dan buntu. kerana cinta, sayang dan rindu jugalah air mata ini gugur kesekian kalinya. aduh... kenapa air mata ini menitis gara-gara insan bergelar lelaki? amaran keras: gue bukan antilelaki ya. cuma gue hairan dengan sifat & sikap manusia bergelar lelaki ini. ada sesiapa boleh bantu agar gue tidak bias dalam perhitungan hidup?

quiet, lonely place. just the two of us... +3. love all of you.

9 Jun 2009, 8:09pm

Adik bongsuku dalam dilema. Justeru ibu bapaku juga turut dilema, disertai teruja. Aku cuma berbangga kerana dia berjaya mendapat tempat di IPT tempatan, juga mendapat tempat untuk melanjutkan pelajarannya ke luar negara menerusi MUFY. Kelakarnya, lain jurusan yang dipohonnya, lain pula yang ditawarkan. Biasalah tu! Apply lain, panggil interview course lain, dapat lak course lain. Anehnya sistem pemilihan dan kemasukan IPT di Malaysia ni. Dan baru-baru ni, adikku & my parents telah ke ibu pejabat MARA untuk membuat rayuan. Kelakarnya, walaupun ramai yang datang ke pejabat itu atas tujuan yang sama, pegawai yang bertugas langsung tak buat apa2 tindakan, i.e. ambil nota/wat repot tentang aduan mereka. Dia (aku tak suka guna beliau sebab aku tak rasa pegawai tu patut direspek, cuma patut dikursuskan lagi >:D) telah menggunakan 'kemahiran kemanusiaan'nya, i.e. bercakap dengan petah, telah memberikan komentar/nasihat yang ngarut kepada para pemohon & ibu bapa yang telah ...

foto ini hiasan semata & ini bukan laman rumah gue . harap maklum . tq . So... what's d catch? " Kita umo dah tua 2 gini , elok pakai Merz . sedap driving long distance ," kata sorang sahabat surau abahku , yang merupakan ahli kelab Merz taman perumahan kitorang . Entahla . I just don't see d point of driving a Merz when u're already 57 . Juga , adik - beradikku yang sume dah beso panjang lebih optimis kepada family car , i.e. Toyota Serena ataupun van. Tapi abahku ... probably a typical father/man ego yang tak mau ngalah tetap pertahankan Merz 380 SE itu . Malah siap cari shades, seat cover untuk kete tu . Hmm... Apa kata kita tunggu & lihat saja ;)

i am at ease, by the thought of u. i am content. an image of u, soothes me yet sends tingling sensations to every part of me. a glimpse of u, make me blush yet i felt warmth (is it or am i just dreaming?) . a chat with u... obviously i'm so nervous i say less and observe more. being with u... are u the angel sent from above for me? to be my guide and cherish everything I have & had? i am thankful. thank you. note: image from http://www.stencilwords.com/images/fall%20thankful.jpg

ada gak yang jeles cucu mesra dengan atoknya... huhuh itu pasal aku kata sengal! akupun jadik sengal gak! sebabnya... aku lah cucu tu! tak paham tol aku. inilah dunia (akhir jaman) ... esok lusa tah apa la pulak... mungkin jadi cam gambo sebelah ni kot :p HISH! mintak simpang selisih malaikat 44!!! (image: jealousy.jpg Copyright 2004 Steven Stahlberg) thanks Steven Stahlberg!  

bring me back my happiness!!! i have forgotten what it's like to be happy. i've lost it a long time ago. i'll only feel happy when someone else that is around me is/are happy- children, people... me? what happened? why and how i lost it? i want to be happy therefore i'm searching for it. i haven't found it, yet. to love others thy must learn to love thyself. so ... will i ever find my happiness?

Had been browsing thru the 'Net and found this page, eblog templates.com . and... Voila!! I've already transformed my blogs, all three of 'em! But they still stand as individual blogs :) Thanx eblogtemplates.com!

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your red string has already choked my heart and slicing it into pieces. is there anymore damage to be done?

untie me. these strings have turned into ropes, pulling me down into the deepest, darkest tunnel of my life. i'm unhappy here. i'm not getting answers to my questions. you left me the questions to answer all by myself. i'm tired of guessing, hinting and all... i want your answer.  i'm simply tired of all this. really.  or perhaps... should i initiate the 1st move? would you be moved by then? or... like the others, you silently break away from me, avoiding me all you can.  what should i do?  what do i do then?  what would you do?

If blogger is a book, I'd probably have finished my 5th book (perhaps even more) on writing/"rambling". Thing is, I'm not thaat enthusiastic as in my teen/schooling years. Probably at that time I'm so raged to let off steam on paper rather to a person. The pen is mightier than the sword they say. Just too many happenings in the world today makes 1 wonder what, where, who, when, how things went wrong when it shouldn't. Or probably it's 1 of the signs that it's the end of the world? anyway i've been drawn into video editing since the past few days. lots of new things to learn and discover along the way; even meet new friends.

I've added another blog: Artzy Frenzy Gallery . you can view my artworks online.

...as always. This'll be my personal platform to upload my works of art. Also an alternative to uploading my works onto deviantart.com, since I'm facing connection difficulties to the 'Net. enjoy! oh yes, comments are welcome. so... welcome aboard!

...as always. This'll be my personal platform to upload my works of art. Also an alternative to uploading my works onto deviantart.com, since I'm facing connection difficulties to the 'Net. enjoy! oh yes, comments are welcome. so... welcome aboard!

managed to crack up this lazy brain of mine to compose a few updates. bad nerve coordination I believe, even my fingers were reluctant to agree to what the brain commanded them to do. (lame excuse!) Last two week's been a hectic week (well... not really) - Children coming into rehearsals in a messy studio-cum-clubhouse of ours ( Bingkas Kebayan 's), Angkatan Karyawan Aktif Kuala Lumpur (ANGKA)'s theatre fragment video shoot, plus me attending a half-day crash course of Final Cut Pro video editing at manggis (kudos to sifu Abang Pojie @ Fauzee Nasir, Kak Yan's hubby). Bingkas Kebayan's rehearsals for its 1st musical, Mahkota Buana The rehearsals have already begun since we've finished the MPAJ's Maulud project last March. At the moment the kids are... well, rehearsing. A few of them have gone into recording music guides for the musical at Quantize Studio, Pandan Indah. Definitely, after each production, the production team "suffers" post-productio...

I haven't had the chance to update this blog in a veeery looong time. It seems that I've been "hooked" with Facebook (or more accurately, addicted). Currently busy preparing items for the group's audition (9-10/2/2008). Which means that I'll be not updating this blog (again) for God knows how long. Oh yes, I've discovered other things along the way too. I've also managed to exercise my clumsy fingers to draw. Which reminds me to include some of them here (some are still unfinished works): Anyway you guys can check out deviantart.com (dA in ahort). Which reminds me... I haven't submitted any artwork (yet!) to dA. Have fun browsing the site!