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Poetry blog updated

2009-11-06T19:26:00.009+08:00

Wow! It has been awhile (too long) that I have blogged anything into this one.

Anyway, I have already updated Is This What You Call Literature??? blog,

added two new poems that have been inspired (forced) due to the 1Malaysia concept.

Well, not really forced but more of a workshop thingy that I had participated in

GAPENA's 1Malaysia poetry writing workshop last Friday (30 Oct-1 Nov 2009)

at Akademi Kenegaraan BTN, KL.

Here you go and enjoy or hate them: Ikrar Serumpun and Balada Pa' Belalang

cubaann..

2009-10-20T02:15:00.001+08:00

New blog up, an e-novel of my own on (WIP) Aku Bukan Anak Patung. check it out!

dilemma

2009-10-02T02:12:00.002+08:00

It has been awhile (too long, in fact) since I wrote anything in this blog. Anyway, being a daughter and under care of parents, I have been nagged quite a number of times (too much I believe) to stabilize myself so that I can help my parents to support myself and other siblings, and of course, my parents. I believe it is everyone's responsibilities to pay gratitude to their parents and take care of them in return.

However, when I told them I wanted to pursue my ambition as a lighting designer, the reaction I got from my dad was, "Oh, so that's like, struggling for an electric engineer post." At first I ignored that tell-tale signs. As I return home for the Eid Mubarak festive and stayed at my parents' for awhile, again the subject was brought up.

I kept this to myself, "Why is it so difficult to be a lighting designer here (in Malaysia)?" Well, possible reason(s) would be:

It's a men's world out there. Only individuals with Electrical qualifications can do the job.
The theatre scene here is S.L.O.W. ... More work to be done here. Theatre is considered non-profitable at the moment; hardly any performances get profit from tickets' sales in comparison to movies' tickets' sales.
Skepticism... "Can a gal do lights/technical theatre?" Yes, I got this from a friend of mine who persuaded me to design lights for his show. I also got the same response from other events' contractors such as ShowGear, Orange Events. But again, they pointed out that there are girls that do audio visual work like laying cables, followspot operators, soundperson out there only that they are not highlighted and/or they are still a minority.

So what I am going to is...

DO WHAT I BELIEVE IS BEST & STRIVE FOR IT!!!

AL-kisah...

2009-08-20T19:23:00.005+08:00

ramadhan dah dekat...

segala setan, iblis dan lain2 diikat.

poselah kita, dapat berkat. tapi masih juga ada yang "disakat" :D

tak lupa juga salurkan zakat, ikut syariat. tapi masih juga ada yang bertangan berat

tibanya malam lailatuqadar, malam penuh rahmat

malam dinanti baraqah mengatasi segala nikmat

yang berperangai setan berubah umpama malaikat (Insya Allah!)

itulah... ramadhan penghulu segala bulan

selamat nyambut ramadhan al-mubarak kpd sume saudara seagama kita di seantero dunio!

renungan hari ini, ketika ini

2009-07-11T03:43:00.004+08:00

kerana cinta, sayang dan rindu maka ramai yang menderita, merana juga terpedaya.

kerana tiga perkataan inilah manusia jadi bingung dan buntu.

kerana cinta, sayang dan rindu jugalah air mata ini gugur kesekian kalinya.

aduh...

kenapa air mata ini menitis gara-gara insan bergelar lelaki?

amaran keras: gue bukan antilelaki ya. cuma gue hairan dengan sifat & sikap manusia bergelar lelaki ini. ada sesiapa boleh bantu agar gue tidak bias dalam perhitungan hidup?

new room

2009-07-06T01:23:00.005+08:00

quiet, lonely place.

just the two of us... +3.

love all of you.

Cherish the moments

2009-06-11T00:42:00.003+08:00

9 Jun 2009, 8:09pm

Yang mana satu pilihan kalbu: SPC, MUFY, IB...???

2009-05-15T17:41:00.007+08:00

Adik bongsuku dalam dilema.

Justeru ibu bapaku juga turut dilema, disertai teruja. Aku cuma berbangga kerana dia berjaya mendapat tempat di IPT tempatan, juga mendapat tempat untuk melanjutkan pelajarannya ke luar negara menerusi MUFY.

Kelakarnya, lain jurusan yang dipohonnya, lain pula yang ditawarkan. Biasalah tu! Apply lain, panggil interview course lain, dapat lak course lain. Anehnya sistem pemilihan dan kemasukan IPT di Malaysia ni.

Dan baru-baru ni, adikku & my parents telah ke ibu pejabat MARA untuk membuat rayuan. Kelakarnya, walaupun ramai yang datang ke pejabat itu atas tujuan yang sama, pegawai yang bertugas langsung tak buat apa2 tindakan, i.e. ambil nota/wat repot tentang aduan mereka. Dia (aku tak suka guna beliau sebab aku tak rasa pegawai tu patut direspek, cuma patut dikursuskan lagi >:D) telah menggunakan 'kemahiran kemanusiaan'nya, i.e. bercakap dengan petah, telah memberikan komentar/nasihat yang ngarut kepada para pemohon & ibu bapa yang telah hadir mengemukakan aduan & rayuan mereka, contohnya:

Seorang pemohon bidang Perubatan telah memohon untuk melanjutkan pelajarannya ke Alexandria, Mesir namun beliau ditawarkan tempat di Australia. Apabila ditanyakan sebab beliau diberi penempatan tersebut, pegawai tu jawab sebab Alexandria memerlukan kelulusan bahasa ke-3 (Arab). Ironisnya, untuk kemasukan Perubatan di Alexandria, kelulusan Bahasa Arab tidak menjadi syarat kemasukan kerana bahasa pengantara yang digunakan dalam kuliah adalah Bahasa Inggeris.

So...

What does this mean? Birokrasi atau...?

My sis' scenario, (ya, adik bongsu gue), telah merayu untuk menukar dari Bioteknologi kepada Medic. Pegawai yang pandai bercakap ni bagitau, adikku ditawarkan kursus itu atas dasar keputusan IQ Test yang telah diambil. Ok fine, acceptable.

Cuma heran dengan sikap pegawai tu je... Apa nak jadi la???

Merz 380 SE & Abahku

2009-04-05T00:27:00.006+08:00

foto ini hiasan semata & ini bukan laman rumah gue. harap maklum. tq.

So... what's d catch?

"Kita umo dah tua2 gini, elok pakai Merz. sedap driving long distance," kata sorang sahabat surau abahku, yang merupakan ahli kelab Merz taman perumahan kitorang.

Entahla.

I just don't see d point of driving a Merz when u're already 57. Juga, adik-beradikku yang sume dah beso panjang lebih optimis kepada family car, i.e. Toyota Serena ataupun van. Tapi abahku... probably a typical father/man ego yang tak mau ngalah tetap pertahankan Merz 380 SE itu. Malah siap cari shades, seat cover untuk kete tu.

Hmm...
Apa kata kita tunggu & lihat saja ;)

a dedication

2009-04-04T01:02:00.005+08:00

i am at ease, by the thought of u.
i am content.

an image of u, soothes me yet sends tingling sensations to every part of me.

a glimpse of u, make me blush yet i felt warmth (is it or am i just dreaming?).

a chat with u... obviously i'm so nervous i say less and observe more.

being with u...

are u the angel sent from above for me?
to be my guide and cherish everything I have & had?

i am thankful.

thank you.

note: image from http://www.stencilwords.com/images/fall%20thankful.jpg

facebook profile makeover using PageRage!

2009-04-01T19:44:00.001+08:00

siapa sengal: Aku ke... ko?

2009-03-13T01:46:00.005+08:00

ada gak yang jeles cucu mesra dengan atoknya...

huhuh

itu pasal aku kata sengal!

akupun jadik sengal gak! sebabnya...

akulah cucu tu!

tak paham tol aku.

inilah dunia (akhir jaman)... esok lusa tah apa la pulak... mungkin jadi cam gambo sebelah ni kot :p

HISH! mintak simpang selisih malaikat 44!!!

thanks Steven Stahlberg!

what is happiness?

2009-02-08T00:02:00.003+08:00

bring me back my happiness!!!

i have forgotten what it's like to be happy. i've lost it a long time ago.

i'll only feel happy when someone else that is around me is/are happy- children, people...

me?

what happened? why and how i lost it?

i want to be happy therefore i'm searching for it.

i haven't found it, yet.

to love others thy must learn to love thyself.

so...

will i ever find my happiness?

New year new look

2009-01-28T20:36:00.004+08:00

Had been browsing thru the 'Net and found this page, eblog templates.com. and...

Voila!!

I've already transformed my blogs, all three of 'em! But they still stand as individual blogs :)

Thanx eblogtemplates.com!

Can Blood Type Determine Your Personality?

2008-12-19T12:49:00.003+08:00

I have a rare blood type—AB+, which only 4 percent of the U.S. has—and secretly, I always thought it made me kind of special, even...

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feature: MyFunCards- Best Friends

2008-12-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

hanged/tied v1.0

2008-12-12T15:56:00.002+08:00

your red string has already choked my heart and slicing it into pieces.

is there anymore damage to be done?

hanged/tied?

2008-11-12T22:39:00.003+08:00

untie me.

these strings have turned into ropes, pulling me down into the deepest, darkest tunnel of my life.

i'm unhappy here.

i'm not getting answers to my questions. you left me the questions to answer all by myself. i'm tired of guessing, hinting and all... i want your answer.

i'm simply tired of all this.

really.

or perhaps...

should i initiate the 1st move? would you be moved by then?

or... like the others, you silently break away from me, avoiding me all you can.

what should i do?

what do i do then?

what would you do?

Point of ponder

2008-07-03T01:43:00.004+08:00

If blogger is a book, I'd probably have finished my 5th book (perhaps even more) on writing/"rambling". Thing is, I'm not thaat enthusiastic as in my teen/schooling years. Probably at that time I'm so raged to let off steam on paper rather to a person. The pen is mightier than the sword they say.

Just too many happenings in the world today makes 1 wonder what, where, who, when, how things went wrong when it shouldn't. Or probably it's 1 of the signs that it's the end of the world?

anyway i've been drawn into video editing since the past few days. lots of new things to learn and discover along the way; even meet new friends.

new blog!

2008-06-16T02:40:00.001+08:00

I've added another blog: Artzy Frenzy Gallery. you can view my artworks online.

intro

2008-06-16T01:53:00.001+08:00

...as always. This'll be my personal platform to upload my works of art. Also an alternative to uploading my works onto deviantart.com, since I'm facing connection difficulties to the 'Net.

enjoy!

oh yes, comments are welcome.

so...

welcome aboard!

intro

2008-06-16T01:53:00.000+08:00

(lazy) Update

2008-05-14T21:17:00.003+08:00

managed to crack up this lazy brain of mine to compose a few updates. bad nerve coordination I believe, even my fingers were reluctant to agree to what the brain commanded them to do. (lame excuse!)

Last two week's been a hectic week (well... not really) - Children coming into rehearsals in a messy studio-cum-clubhouse of ours (Bingkas Kebayan's), Angkatan Karyawan Aktif Kuala Lumpur (ANGKA)'s theatre fragment video shoot, plus me attending a half-day crash course of Final Cut Pro video editing at manggis (kudos to sifu Abang Pojie @ Fauzee Nasir, Kak Yan's hubby).

Bingkas Kebayan's rehearsals for its 1st musical, Mahkota Buana
The rehearsals have already begun since we've finished the MPAJ's Maulud project last March. At the moment the kids are... well, rehearsing. A few of them have gone into recording music guides for the musical at Quantize Studio, Pandan Indah.

Definitely, after each production, the production team "suffers" post-production phase - returning lent costumes and props, reviewing the overall expenses and performance, and YES... cleaning up the studio-cum-clubhouse. The clubhouse will definitely be in total messed up condition. But that's the beauty of a production. (eh?!)

ANGKA's Fragmen Teater II
Managed to video shoot their lil' theatre fragments performances. Put up together 4 different stories and you'll get Fragmen Teater. This time they welcomed AROMA Theatreworks staging Mangli (director Apai), apart from the other 3 fragments: Posto II (Azman Hassan aka Pokme), Kemenyan Hantu (Lamin) and Darai Ghazal Party Terakhir (Esnani Elias). Good effort and cooperation put together.

Final Cut Pro 6hr Crash Course
Most probably the most unbelievable class I've ever attended to. Held at manggis's studio, coached by the diligent Abang Fauzee Nasir aka Pojie, we managed to cover most of the essentials of video editing using Final Cut Pro.

Kudos to Abang Pojie and manggis!
thanx a millions!!!

Ok, I think I've written what I wanted to say. I need to get back to my real work.

Err...

2008-02-09T02:48:00.000+08:00

I haven't had the chance to update this blog in a veeery looong time. It seems that I've been "hooked" with Facebook (or more accurately, addicted).

Currently busy preparing items for the group's audition (9-10/2/2008). Which means that I'll be not updating this blog (again) for God knows how long.

Oh yes, I've discovered other things along the way too. I've also managed to exercise my clumsy fingers to draw. Which reminds me to include some of them here (some are still unfinished works):

Anyway you guys can check out deviantart.com (dA in ahort). Which reminds me... I haven't submitted any artwork (yet!) to dA. Have fun browsing the site!

2007-12-25T01:47:00.001+08:00

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Weekend/day(?) fun

2007-06-19T19:05:00.000+08:00

some of the many magic & wonders of creative technology :) really enjoyed fidgeting with Adobe Elements 5.0. if only i could just figure out how to post offline galleries to the Net...

Toast 'em! (2006 collection)

2007-06-03T01:19:00.000+08:00

Warming up & vocals everybody!!

Video anyone?

2007-05-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

have a visit @ http://www.tagged.com/video_player.html?vid=215221&uid=8561846

care to drop a few comments or so :)

Creating a new website

2007-05-05T15:06:00.000+08:00

Too occupied lately with assignments, coaching... glad i could spend some time updating this blog (hopefully others too), soon.

I'll be maintaining Persatuan Anjung Seni Bingkas Kebayan, Malaysia's website (URL www.bingkaskebayanmalaysia.com). Feel free to check it out.

For now, blogger will be the host for the Bingkas Kebayan's info (still adding things onto it).

adieu...

A bit of here & there...

2007-02-21T20:38:00.000+08:00

just added another bit of 'literature' to my other blog. kinda jumbled up lately - datelines to catch due to our group's theatre shoot this coming March. and... totally to update my so-called schedule of activities, as usual.

will do that, later...!

FINALLY...!

2007-01-09T16:09:00.000+08:00

what a relief...

after a few weeks (or months?!) of being unable to access my blog, FINALLY i've managed to do so today.

nothing much of an activity I guess... only that I'll be starting my classes this semester (yay!!!). hopefully all goes well.

will be updating my blog soon. hopefully I'll have more juices to spice up my blogs (yes! both blogs).

have faith, believe in thyself.

iklaneka (english version): Basic Children's Theatre Workshop

2006-11-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

Basic Children's Theatre Workshop

Persatuan Anjung Seni Bingkas Kebayan, Malaysia, in collaboration with Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka Kuala Lumpur and Shah Alam Gallery will organize Basic Children's Theatre Workshop on 18 November-24 December 2006 in Kuala Lumpur and Shah Alam, simultaneously.

Interested and enthusiastic primary until IPT students as well as adults are welcome to participate.

As an alternative activity during the school holidays, the workshop is hoped to produce new talented individuals who are passionate in the arts. The workshop venues will be located at 1, Jalan 5/8 Pandan Indah and Galeri Shah Alam, Persiaran Tasik, Tasik Barat respectively.

A team of experienced instructors will conduct music, vocals (singing) and dance in Kuala Lumpur and another in Shah Alam - vocals (acting and poetry citing) and scenography (set, prop design, puppet-making, make-up and printing). Fellow instructors include Yahaya Othman, Nazri Idris, Zahimarni Hamzah, Zamri Hamazah, Ramlan Ramli, Azizah Hussain, Salwah Abdullah, Khairulsani Ismail, Khairil Anwar Mohd Azahari, Mohd. Rayme Abdul Rahman, Rozita Hussin, Amir Shoib and Ladin Nuawi.

Registration will be held on 18 and 19 November 2006 at 1, Jalan 5/8 Pandan Indah. Participatory fee is RM80 per course (Kuala Lumpur) and RM50 per course (Shah Alam).

Further enquiries, kindly contact Azizah Hussain (016-2342735), Nurhayati Alia (019-3357957), Noor Baya (014-6605030) atau Ladin Nuawi (012-3721453).

photo(s) from "JANGAN"

2006-08-17T00:33:00.000+08:00

taken from gurisan intaglio's blogspot. thnx mate!

Comments- APA Project: "JANGAN"

2006-08-14T11:30:00.000+08:00

from http://tontonfilem.blog-city.com/

4 Aug 2006

Dua filem, Satu Teater- Kesemuanya Permata Malaysia

Teater 'Jangan' Boleh!

'Jangan' adalah sebuah teater arahan Hamdan Yasin yang diambil ideanya daripada Sudiro Sukiman, ditayangkan percuma untuk dua hari di Taman Budaya dengan khalayak penonton yang memberangsangkan. Satu tepukan dan "horaaay" pada KekWa dan aktivis-aktivis teater kerana aku tersedar, kali ini, sudah adanya kehidupan teater Malaysia, nadinya sudah mula terasa dengan pelbagai premis untuk menyiarkan teater, syabas!
Syabas juga buat Artis Penjuru Alam, produksi yang menerbit teater ini. Bukan apa. Seluruh pelakon dalam kumpulan teater ini, semuanya muda-muda, muka-muka baru dalam lapangan dunia teater. Semuanya bersemangat, bersungguh-sungguh dan tahu apa itu lakonan. Kalah Nasha Aziz dalam Lantai T. Pinkie. Mikhael Hafiz, Noor Azwani, Muhammad Asraf, Idham, Aina Basiran, Danial Arif, Abdul Manan, Nur Masliana, Nor Huzaimi, A'sikin, Ahmad Tarmizi dan terutamanya Sharifah Harlina Azreen telah melakukan sesuatu yang memberangsangkan walaupun mungkin ini teater pertama mereka. Aku paling suka Sharifah Harlina. Dia yang tampak sebagai pelakon utama, teraju yang mengikat keseluruhan cebisan-cebisan sketsa dalam teater ini telah memaparkan satu profesionalisme dan stamina yang sangat baik untuk seorang pelakon yang mungkin sangat baru.
'Jangan' sendiri adalah sebuah teater kecil yang penuh semangat dan menghiburkan. Hamdan Yasin adalah seorang genius. Dia sedar apa itu teater rakyat dan bangsawan, apa yang membuatkan teater-teater ini digemari zaman ke zaman hingga kini. Sedikit tradisi (apabila membaca Biografi Aminah Nani) bangsawan tetap terserap dalam teater wayang dan filem Melayu hingga kini, dan boleh dilihat tersalur tradisi itu dalam Salam Pantai Timur ataupun senario (Aminah Nani memangggilnya Bangsawan Jenaka) dan kemudian Akademi Fantasia. Itu adalah milik rakyat dan menyelusuri pemikiran rakyatnya, ia terletak, menjadi suara majoriti rakyatnya (yang boleh dirangkulkan sebagai simple folks people). Nasihat menasihat, sindir menyindir, dengar celoteh, dengar cerita tentang orang- itu kelaziman dalam psyche orang Melayu (dan Malaysia). Hamdan gunakan landasan ini lalu mengikatnya dengan satu premis tentang kekolotan atau ketidaksiuman orang Malaysia dalam kehidupan mereka- lalu 'Jangan' tercipta.
Dalam pemberian segala yang rakyat dan "pop" ini, secara halus Hamdan juga "menyindir" (seperti yang dilakukan oleh Mamat Khalid dalam Man Laksa) penonton mutakhirnya yang menyukai Hindustan, artis pop, AF dan "Mak kata jangan". Dan semua ini dibuat secara tidak terang-terangan, maka ia tampak "biasa" dalam penerimaan psyche Melayu, yang sebenarnya mengejek perlakuan biasa ornag Malaysia yang menyukai dan menerima lakonan budaya itu.
'Jangan' mungkin seakan Scenario. Tetapi itulah yang menarik. Ia tampak komedi dan mewanca sketsa-sketsa yang dirangkul seakan sitkom, tetapi bila sketsa-sketsa itu dicedok isinya, isunya lebih serius dan penting dari seribu sitkom Scenario. Dan paling baik, Hamdan tidak memaksa penontonnya untuk 'mencedok' isi-isi dalam teater ini dan ia boleh saja ditonton sebagai satu teater komedi/farce atau kerja pos-modenis terhibur yang baik. Mungkin akhir teater ini agak kelam-kabut dan dibuat dengan memberi banyak pertanyaan. Tetapi itulah yang mahu Hamdan sampaikan, persoalan untuk kita memahami, status quo dan definisi moral yang kita sudah 'tanamkan' dalam hal-hal seharian kita, dan bagaimana manusia, walau bagaimana disuruh-paksa, kotak-katik, tetap akan ada saluran yang membuak manusiawi individualnya yang membuatnya manusia. Dan itu sudah cukup baik untuk mengungkapkan makna "Jangan" yang pelbagai maksud pada setiap orang.

Simply adding photos as i've got no work to do (la la la la~)

2006-08-14T10:53:00.000+08:00

my favourite animal...wish i could be like it, smart & free

smile~ u're on candid camera!

memori daun pisang....

my Sijil Teknologi Pentas (ASK) project 2005

oh well....what can i say...i've just finished another project with APA (www.artispenjurualam.blogspot.com) recently & i'm soo bored, or rather enthusiastic to wait for another project yet to arrive. this month's a promising one but i'm not sure if i can survive (sakit xde $$ ler weii...ingat keje free lance ni sonang ko?!) anyway just be patient, be very, very patient...

"SEraBut" + it's KL Arts' Festival month!!!

2006-07-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

this is a very "serabut" week for me...anyway those who are interested in watching theatre, please do come watch a comedy theatre "JANGAN" performed at the Taman Budaya KL this coming 28 & 29 July 2006, 8:30pm. admission free. how to get there? just stop at the PUTRA LRT Central Market station & it's roughly a 5 minutes' walk. the location? it's beside the KL traffic police's station. all right, see you there & let's all support the KL Arts' Festival happening this month of July!!!

UiTM MA students' trip to FRIM

2006-05-25T18:38:00.000+08:00

these photos taken from my classmate's fotopages' website (thanx ea, i owe u 1 :D). enjoy 'em while u still can!!!

2006-02-28T18:39:00.000+08:00

quite tiring actually...

last week was chaos+thrill+fun :)
well...nothing much really except that all the enthuasiasm of designing & operating the lights for "Toast!" & "Wake Up & Smell the Coffee" (rugi weh sape tak gi tengok!!) . i'm happy & relieved, at least i feel that i've survived the 1 week of mental torture hehe.

anyways...u guys can check out my (art)works at my friendster blog's photo album:
http://alienatedme.blogs.friendster.com/photos/alias_lighting_designs_fo/

nuff said! i'm outta here!!!

Am I like that??? (characteristics shown according to the month u're born)

2006-02-28T18:12:00.000+08:00

JUNE
1. Abiding
2. Able to show character
3. Active mind
4. Brand conscious
5. Choosy and always wants the best
6. Daydreamer
7. Easily bored
8. Easily hurt
9. Easily influenced by kindness
10. Executive
11. Friendly
12. Funny and humorous
13. Fussy
14. Good debating skills
15. Having lots of ideas
16. Hesitating
17. Knows how to make friends
18. Loves to dress up
19. Loves to joke
20. Polite and soft-spoken
21. Prone to getting colds
22. Seldom show emotions
23. Sensitive
24. Stubborn
25. Takes time to recover when hurt
26. Talkative
27. Temperamental
28. Tends to delay
29. Thinks far with vision
30. Those who hate me are friends
31. Those who love me are enemies

just think & lemme know k?? heheh

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

2006-02-09T05:19:00.000+08:00

Coffee & Toast!

Details are as below:

Performances:
a) Play - "Toast!" - Original Script by Shahredza Minhat
b) Monolog - Excerpts of "Wake up and smell the coffee" - Eric Bogosian Script

Dates:
Fri-Sat : 24 - 25 Feb 2006 (830 p.m.)
Sunday: 26 Feb 2006 (230 p.m. and 830 p.m.)

Venue:
Taman Budaya, Jabatan Kebudayaan,Kesenian & Warisan, Jalan Tun H.S Lee, Kuala Lumpur (Accessible by Central Market/Pasar Seni Putra LRT)

Tickets :
RM 10 (contact Mukeh - 012-2552071 or mukeh@yahoo.com)

For further details (Synopsis,cast & crew, map), Please visit http://coffeeandtoast.s0lidmind.com (updating in progress)

REMINDER : CONTENT MIGHT NOT BE SUITABLE FOR AUDIENCES UNDER 18

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activities' updates

2006-02-06T14:00:00.000+08:00

JANUARY '06 - started classes @ UiTM Shah Alam

FEBRUARY '06
early Feb '06: busy with classes, brain-cracking - asking questions of what I'll be doing for the next 3 semesters inUiTM (my research proposal, that is) as well as attending my 1st rehearsal after 2 MONTHS of vacation (restaging "Toast!" & "Wake UP & Smell the Coffee" @ Tmn Budaya KL, beside the KL Police Traffic Building)
21 Feb '06: Bump into Taman Budaya KL
22 Feb '06: Technical rehearsal
23 Feb '06: Press conference (TBC)
24-25 Feb '06: SHOW @ 8PM
26 Feb '06: MATINEE SHOW @ 3PM, LAST SHOW @ 8PM
#times to be confirmed again#

MARCH '06: classes, exams, presentations.... i think

APRIL '06: performance by APA Group

Resume???

2006-01-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

Nurhayati Alia Mohd Sallehhuddin
AN7, Jalan 1/3, Taman Desa Kenanga, 43500 Semenyih, Selangor.
60- 8724 7071
013-2216328
nurhayatialia81@yahoo.com
12 June 1981
Single

Educational Background

UiTM Shah Alam: MA Visual Communications & New Media, Present
ASWARA (formerly known as ASK): Cert. in Technical Stage, 2005
University Malaysia Sarawak: BA (Hons.) Drama & Theatre, graduated Aug 2004
PTPL College Shah Alam: Matriculation Cert., 2001

Experiences
2007
ACTING

"Woyzeck" directed by Esnani Elias, performed at Panggung Taman Budaya Kuala Lumpur for KL Theatre Festival 2007 (8 July)

STAGE MANAGEMENT

"Woyzeck" directed by Esnani Elias, performed at Panggung Taman Budaya Kuala Lumpur for KL Theatre Festival 2007 (8 July)

LIGHTING DESIGN

"Teater Digital Kanak-kanak Bersiri POHON KASIH" directed by Zaki Muhamad, performed at Auditorium Dewan Bahasa Kuala Lumpur (16-18 March)

POETRY WRITING

"Forward Towards Glory" for RTM

2006
STAGE MANAGEMENT

"Pohon Kasih" directed by Ladin Nuawi, performed at Stadium Tertutup SUKPA, Kuantan, Pahang for Festival Kesenian Kanak-kanak Malaysia (2 Dec)
"Sketsa Hadiah Hari Raya" for RTM

LIGHTING DESIGN

"Pohon Kasih" directed by Ladin Nuawi, performed at Stadium Tertutup SUKPA, Kuantan, Pahang for Festival Kesenian Kanak-kanak Malaysia (2 Dec)
"Soluloki Sebuah Kanvas" directed by Mohdee, performed at Panggung Taman Budaya Kuala Lumpur
"Jangan!" directed by Hamdan Yassin, performed at Panggung Taman Budaya Kuala Lumpur

POETRY WRITING

"Forward Towards Glory" for RTM

STAGE CREW

"Duta Samudera, Alam Merdeka Alam" directed by Ladin Nuawi, performed at Panggung Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur (23-28 Aug)

2005
STAGE MANAGEMENT

"Toast!" directed by David Lim & "Wake Up and Smell the Coffee" directed by Abdul Qahar Aqilah, performed at Multipurpose Hall, MMU Cyberjaya

LIGHTING DESIGN

"Toast!" directed by David Lim & "Wake Up and Smell the Coffee" directed by Abdul Qahar Aqilah, performed at Multipurpose Hall, MMU Cyberjaya
"Magic Feather Boa" directed by Mahyuddin Musa, performed at Putrajaya

AUDIOMAN

"Toast!" directed by David Lim, performed at Multipurpose Hall, MMU Cyberjaya

2004
STAGE MANAGEMENT

"Jomelah" directed by Vanitha Abdul, performed at Auditorium Tun Ahmad Zaidi Adruce (TAZA), Batu Lintang Teachers' College, Kuching, Sarawak

STAGE CREW

"Laras Gong - Rhythm in Bronze Concert" by Five Arts Center, performed at The Actors Studio Bangsar

2003
LIGHTING OPERATOR

"Indie Underground Noize Concert" performed at The Box, The Actors Studio Dataran Merdeka

LIGHTING DESIGN

"Pulau Sadandi" directed by Mahyuddin Musa, performed at MTC Ampang for National Theatre Festival 2003

INTERNSHIP

The Actors Studio Dataran Merdeka

2002
STAGE CREW

"Di Mana Bulan Selalu Retak" directed by Azhan Abdul Rani, performed at Dewan Jubli Intan Johor Bahru, Johor

ANNOUNCEMENT!

2006-01-01T20:31:00.000+08:00

pls be advised that from this day onwards, the rojak poetry blog has been renamed Is This What U Call Literature??? but the URL remains the same.

happy new year ppl!!!!

updates...Again!

2005-12-20T11:45:00.000+08:00

activities as follows:

DECEMBER '05
somewhere early Dec '05 (can't recall exact date): joined friend's production as Stage Manager+Lighting Designer
middle of Dec '05: busy with rehearsals
29/12/05: ARRRGGGHHHH~~~! SHOWTIME @ MMU Multipurpose Hall 8:30pm

NOVEMBER '05 - Deepavali & Raya holiday

OCT '05 - ZZZzzz....~ Again (except work, that is)

SEPT '05
3-4/9/05: Pertandingan Deklamasi Puisi Kemerdekaan Peringkat KL
not joining due to some reasons :( just finished work by that time (9am...sheesh...)
24/9/05: going to see a new theatre group rehearse @ the old Kementerian Kebudayaan Wilayah Persekutuan building somewhere around 8pm, hopefully can find new theatre/performing arts contacts there :D didn't go either...lazy bum!!!

AUGUST '0511/8/05: kamikaze lighting design & show 830pm @ ASK ("Bukan Bunuh Diri")

JULY '05 - ZZZzzz....~ nothing to do-lah except tiring work, work, work, work, WORK...

JUNE '05 - helping out ASK friends with theatre performance "PROTES"
performance cancelled

MAY '05
mid-May (most probably around 24/5/05): rehearsals for ASK production "PROTES"
sundays: ASK classes @ 2pm...this' what happens if you're the kinda person who love's to skip classes... :P
also somewhere in May: office's short performance for the Rewards & Recognition ceremony (it was supposedly held in mid-April)

APRIL '05 - free!!! except for ASK classes, that is...

MARCH '05
13/03/05: submit finished mock-up model to friend in ASK (friend's favor)
17/03/05: UM's theatre prod. bump-in, 8am @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya
18/03/05: lights rigging, adjusting & focusing & plotting session: run through + technical rehearsal(s)
19/03/05: SHOW TIME, 8.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya
20/03/05: SHOW TIME, 3.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya

contd of :)))

2005-10-15T11:12:00.000+08:00

i've got the offer~ going to UiTM Shah Alam this december
ahahaha...sooo happy :D

ramblings

2005-10-08T10:37:00.000+08:00

another lazy, boring saturday morning (or weekend rather)...and it's fasting month.

oh yeah, which reminds me to wish all you people out there happy fasting & may you be strong (evil grin).

like i said, it's a boring weekend here (or probably it's just me). nothing's met my expectations so far, i.e. career-wise coz i'm getting fed up at work. maybe i'm just too annoyed by the working hours or unsatisfied customers nagging, even screaming right into your bloody ears, which in many years to come i'd be diagnosed as D.E.A.F. by the ENT specialist if i don't pity my eardrums.

>sigh< i guess that's what us humans do if we're upset etc. of something/someone. it kinda gets you up there (the brain) for quite a period of time. anyways...i'm tired with all these, just wanna have some peace of mind. don't worry, i just need some Zzzz~ as i've just got back from work.

life's to be enjoyed & live life to the fullest but always remember WHO YOU REALLY ARE... -me signing off...>Tuttt~!<

:)))

2005-09-29T11:50:00.000+08:00

at last...

i'm called for the UiTM master's interview on 3/10/05 from 830am-1230pm..
wish me all the best of luck ppl

My script - TAWAKKAL

2005-09-23T11:18:00.000+08:00

WATAK-WATAK:

Suara 1/ Doktor
Suara 2/ Ibu
Suara 3/ Bapa
Korus

SETING:
Pentas yang boleh dikatakan kosong, kecuali layar putih dan sebahagian kecil kawasan pentas yang diset sebagai wad hospital.

Sekujur tubuh berbaring di atas sebuah katil, wajahnya pucat dan bibirnya biru. Seorang kanak-kanak dalam lingkungan usia 9-10 tahun sedang bertarung nyawa dengan penyakitnya, bergantung harap pada nebuliser yang entah berapa kali ditambah dosnya.

1. SUARA 1: Sudah lama dia berbaring di situ. Masanya amat singkat. Kita tak
boleh tunggu lagi.

2. SUARA 2: Tunggulah sedikit lagi. Dia masih punya harapan bukan?

3. SUARA 1: Harapan yang tipis.

4. SUARA 2: Masih boleh berikhtiar bukan?

(KORUS Geleng)

5. SUARA 3: Marilah sama-sama kita berdoa moga Tuhan mendengar dan
memakbulkan hajat kita.

6. SUARA 1: Moga Tuhan bersama-sama kita. Saya undur diri dahulu.

PENTAS GELAP

7. ANAK: Mak…? Abah…? Mak…mak mana? Abah?

(ANAK berkali-kali memanggil ibubapanya sehingga keletihan)

8. IBU: Abang! Anak kita makin jauh…

9. BAPA: Sabar sayang, bawa beristighfar.

10. IBU: Tapi bang…tengok tu!

11. BAPA: Istighfar sayang, mengucap…ini dugaan Tuhan pada kita
yang.

12. IBU: Tapi bang…

PENTAS GELAP

13. ANAK: Kenapa mak dan abah tiada di sini? Kenapa tempat ini sejuk?

14. KORUS: Kasihan dia. Terperangkap di tempat sebegini. Usianya masih
muda dan perjalanan hidupnya masih jauh.

ANAK terlihat suatu tayangan. Kelihatan kedua-dua ibubapanya dalam tayangan tersebut. Dia cuba menyentuh ibubapanya tetapi hanya mencapai angin – kosong. Dia cuba memanggil ibubapanya tetapi suaranya tidak keluar/ tidak didengari mereka. Dia memerhati ‘lakonan’ ibubapanya di layar itu.

15. KORUS: Pulanglah wahai anak…tempatmu bukan di sini. Ini tempat
persinggahan sementaramu. Ibubapamu masih memerlukanmu dan
menyayangimu. Tuhan juga menyayangimu tapi hayatmu lebih berguna di
samping mereka. Berbakti dan berbuat baiklah kepada mereka. Pulanglah…
pulanglah… (fade out dan KORUS perlahan-lahan keluar meninggalkan
pentas)

PENTAS GELAP

16. IBU: Bang…bangun bang, anak kita dah mula sedar. Tengok
bang…

17. BAPA: Ya, agaknya kali ini ubatnya dah mula menampakkan kesan. Yang,
panggil doktor.

DOKTOR datang

18. DOKTOR: Ya…alhamdulillah, ubatnya dah mula berkesan. Syukur.

ANAK mula sedar, matanya mula terbuka sedikit demi sedikit. Akhirnya dia sedar sepenuhnya, memerhati orang-orang di sekelilingnya.

19. ANAK: Mak, abah…jangan gaduh lagi ya…

20. IBU: Tidak sayang, mak dan abah janji. (memeluk erat ANAK)

SEKIAN

activities update....>Sigh<

2005-09-02T11:47:00.000+08:00

activities as follows:

MARCH '05
13/03/05: submit finished mock-up model to friend in ASK (friend's favor)
17/03/05: UM's theatre prod. bump-in, 8am @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya
18/03/05: lights rigging, adjusting & focusing & plotting session: run through + technical rehearsal(s)19/03/05: SHOW TIME, 8.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya
20/03/05: SHOW TIME, 3.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya

APRIL '05 - free!!! except for ASK classes, that is...

MAY '05
mid-May (most probably around 24/5/05): rehearsals for ASK production "PROTES"
sundays: ASK classes @ 2pm...this' what happens if you're the kinda person who love's to skip classes... :P
also somewhere in May: office's short performance for the Rewards & Recognition ceremony (it was supposedly held in mid-April)

JUNE '05 - helping out ASK friends with theatre performance "PROTES"
performance cancelled

JULY '05 - ZZZzzz....~ nothing to do-lah except tiring work, work, work, work, WORK...

AUGUST '05
11/8/05: kamikaze lighting design & show 830pm @ ASK ("Bukan Bunuh Diri")

SEPT '05
3-4/9/05: Pertandingan Deklamasi Puisi Kemerdekaan Peringkat KL
not joining due to some reasons :( just finished work by that time (9am...sheesh...)
24/9/05: going to see a new theatre group rehearse @ the old Kementerian Kebudayaan Wilayah Persekutuan building somewhere around 8pm, hopefully can find new theatre/performing arts contacts there :D

feast on this!!!

2005-08-30T13:20:00.000+08:00

something for the eyes...check it out!!!

www.gudang.name.my

it's me again

2005-08-29T18:42:00.000+08:00

bz again (more likely off the hook)...

my life's a whole massive entangled wires that i'll need to sort out a strand at a time & it's causing me a lifetime!!!!

anyway..i'm planning to pursue my masters hopefully by the end of this year (yeay!!!) & become yet another graduate pondering what to do with poor miserable life...wish me all the best ppl. what i'll be doing? hmm...visual communications in UiTM Shah Alam...broad prospect i hear from the experts.

til then, i'll still be working @ my miserable place in cyberjaya until further outcome of my masters application. by the way, i'll still have like 4 miserable months to complete my 1 year in that company so wish me well & hopefully i'm brave to go through the 4 months...

hope i'm still sane though... :)

as posted on http://alienatedme.blogs.friendster.com/li3naedme/

2005-08-11T12:10:00.000+08:00

ever wondered one day, after that long deep slumber you'd get up feeling there's something amiss somewhere? have you ever wondered that you'd missed something so valuable that it hurts your heart so badly?? life had been a long, winding journey...perhaps an eternal one...perhaps an enigma or an occurance. too many choices, yet the slightest incorrect decision leaves you scarred or traumatized for another decade or two, maybe your entire life...

scary ain't it?

believe it, it is...

my activities updated...after a while :)

2005-08-09T05:51:00.000+08:00

activities as follows:
MARCH '05
13/03/05: submit finished mock-up model to friend in ASK (friend's favor)
17/03/05: UM's theatre prod. bump-in, 8am @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya
18/03/05: lights rigging, adjusting & focusing & plotting session: run through + technical rehearsal(s)
19/03/05: SHOW TIME, 8.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya
20/03/05: SHOW TIME, 3.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya

APRIL '05 - free!!! except for ASK classes, that is...

MAY '05
mid-May (most probably around 24/5/05): rehearsals for ASK production "PROTES"
sundays: ASK classes @ 2pm...this' what happens if you're the kinda person who love's to skip classes... :P
also somewhere in May: office's short performance for the Rewards & Recognition ceremony (it was supposedly held in mid-April)

JUNE '05 - helping out ASK friends with theatre performance "PROTES"
performance cancelled

JULY '05 - ZZZzzz....~ nothing to do-lah except tiring work, work, work, work, WORK...

AUGUST '05
11/8/05: kamikaze lighting design & show 830pm @ ASK ("Bukan Bunuh Diri")

SEPT '05
3-4/9/05: Pertandingan Deklamasi Puisi Kemerdekaan Peringkat KL

me...i'm back!! (but will i be long here???)

2005-07-12T12:32:00.000+08:00

huh!

after a while, managed to get some stuff into my other lonely, isolated blog (rojak poetry that is). looks like i'm letting something out of me after so long!!!

just check out my poetry blog:
http://rojakpoe3.blogspot.com

have fun (and i mean LOADSA FUN!!!) ppl!!!

holiday

2005-06-23T11:28:00.000+08:00

i will be away...in kuching...just to relax my tousled up mind & emotions :)
pls do not miss me...
i'll be back with more materials (hopefully)

currently i'm assisting my former ASK lecturer (more likely being his research assistant or RA) for his PhD thesis. progress in 2 months' time.

as posted on T.I.P

2005-04-27T11:37:00.000+08:00

characters:a girl, mother, father, doctor

the story focuses on the girl & whtever she's going through in her coma.

a girl, probably 9 or 10 yrs old lying in a hospital bed, admitted for about 3 days because she had acute asthma. her face is off white & her lips are bluish. she's on oxygen gas & life support & her parents are beside her, hoping & praying to God that she'll make it through. as she lay unconscious in bed, she had dreams/ visions - sees her parents - quarrelling, disagreeing with each other over issues (upset with in-laws, work conflict, relative rivalry, etc.)mother repeatedly shouting out for a divorce whilst father was being extra patience with mother. all these happened mostly without her knowing her parents fought as both parents didnt show any signs of tension/discomfort to one another.

each day/night, in her dreams, the girl will see how the relationship between her parents worsen & each time she sees these tears rolling out of her tightly shut eyelids. as she sees the visions each day/night, her life grows shorter (shown at the ECG monitor). the girl's life very crucial on the 3rd day & the doctor adviced tht chances are very thin, 80% she wont be able to make it alive. parents very, very sad - mother cried hysterically while father tried to console her. he was shaking too. the doctor could only advise them to pray harder to God for a miracle.

as for the girl, she was fading away into a wonderful, calm, cooling place. she was floating in mid-air, felt serene. but she felt something was amiss - she could hear faraway voices, voices she recognised frm tht serene, happy place. then she heard a voice frm above saying tht she could make a difference in her current life - she can make life better for her parents. but how, she wondered...

then, as if she was revived,the girl started to show signs of recovering. the doctor & parents are amazed yet grateful that the girl already beginning to show positive signs. slowly the girl opened her eyes & she sees her parents tht had never left her side, then the doctor. the girl reaches out for both her parents' hands & gripped them firm & brought the hands close to her chest. her eyes full of compassion & hope.

mother
mother used to be brought up in a wealthy family but not spoilt. she deeply fell in love with father when she was working with an insurance firm in the city & later married father despite her mother's dislikes of father. her life with father was a-ok for a while,until they've been neglected by relatives due to material standards (father came frm a poor family & relatives say tht he'll bring poverty to the rest of the family/ he's only interested into the mother's inheritance).

father
father was a typical kampung boy, who had to struggle in his youths & teens to earn money to further his studies. he 1st met mother during college yrs but then jsut kept feelings to himself & later on asked mother's hand-of-marriage aft. they meet again (he was already working with an agricultural firm & applying for insurance @ the firm mother's working for). due to his social background (poor kampung boy), the mother-in-law despised him so much tht everything was amiss to her eyes. he didnt say anything but continued to respect her & other relatives without cursing. a very, very patient man although he had harsher times with the relatives & in-laws.

alia's activities (to be updated)

2005-03-09T14:04:00.000+08:00

well, well, well...

after my long M.I.A., i've finally got something right (at least, that's how i wish & hope it would be!)...getting back onto the right track, plus getting busy.

activities as follows:

MARCH '05
13/03/05: submit finished mock-up model to friend in ASK (friend's favor)

17/03/05: UM's theatre prod. bump-in, 8am @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri
Putrajaya

18/03/05: lights rigging, adjusting & focusing & plotting session
: run through + technical rehearsal(s)

19/03/05: SHOW TIME, 8.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya

20/03/05: SHOW TIME, 3.30pm @ Auditorium Jabatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya

APRIL '05 - free!!! except for ASK classes, that is...

MAY '05
mid-May (most probably around 24/5/05): rehearsals for ASK production "PROTES"
sundays: ASK classes @ 2pm...this' what happens if you're the kinda person who love's to skip classes... :P
also somewhere in May: office's short perfromance for the Rewards & Recognition ceremony 9it was supposedly held in mid-April)

JUNE '05 - helping out ASK friends with theatre performance "PROTES"

as posted on youth.arm blog 2/3/05

2005-03-03T11:11:00.000+08:00

1) screwed! improvised
well, this more or less the same story as my previous post only i'd figure it's better to be direct,straight-into-your-face kinda stuff. take your pick ppl!!

screwed!

scene: in an isolated room in an asylum. a girl stared into the blank space in front of her, emotionless. there's a distant yet crystal-clear voice saying, "you've hurt me so deeply & it's funny that you still have your daughter & wife with you. you've used me so much i felt isolated, perhaps alienated from everyone else, including my family. worse of all, you despised my circle of friends for what they are but you are no better yourself. you are no womaniser but you are the Dajjal yourself, using your so-called piousness to deceit the whole world, even women. you are a destroyer & i hope that God'll forgive you for all the sins you've done & the damage you've made. i'll never forgive you for what you've done to me & i pity your child & wife for having such a destructive father-husband to bear with throughout their lives."

the voice later becomes repetitive in teasing tones, annoying tones, angry tones, laughing tones, etc. then all the tones become jumbled up & the girl starts laughing, gradually into a hysterical laughter. as the tones fade away, the girl's laughter tone/pace changes from hysterical to sober and later on angry.

behind her, using a wayang kulit-like screen, images/shadows of the girl arguing with her boyfriend. again, the voice creeping in becoming more & more destructive as she later hit her boyfriend dead numerous times with a china vase.

2) screwed! (or should i call it sweet revenge?ur call ppl!)
description: a very typical gf vs bf scenario. after the break-up.

synopsis (or rather, a story of it):
the devastated gf finds out WHO her ex REALLY was - a 35 y.o. married man with a daughter, still with his wife from her newly declared godsister. she "met" the godsister via the yahoo! messenger & every damned secret is spilled like the fountain of youth to her after she called the godsister, who, online went undercover as her bf (complicated huh?).

dreams shattered (the ex had promised to marry her but somehow decided to use her fragility to satisfy his sexual thrist..>blimey! berapa bulan xdapat hah?!<). the godsister & the gf plotted a plan to teach the idiot a lesson he'll never forget. casually, the godsister invited her to a friendly bowling game. gf declined. later...on the bowling game day... godsister & ex happily playing a set or two games together when suddenly came gf to the alley. both were suprised that the gf ACTUALLY came for the game. the gf, all smiles & cheerful greeted the both of them & decided to join them for the games. it's the gf's turn. she calmly chooses a ball, estimated its weigh & walks towards the alley. seated at the score table, the ex & couple. gf, sort of absent-mindedly drops the ball onto the ex's foot (on purpose). ex started to howl in excruciating pain, cursing her - swearing to her of how cheap she was, etc. godsister stunned by the act but didn't do anything. gf, however kept her head cool despite her heart was raging like a mad wounded bull throughout the ex's cursing/swearing. ending? gf quoted,"you've hurt me so deeply & it's funny that you still have your daughter & wife with you. you've used me so much i felt isolated, perhaps alienated from everyone else, including my family. worse of all, you despised my circle of friends for what they are but you are no better yourself. you are no womaniser but you are the Dajjal yourself, using your so-called piousness to deceit the whole world, even women. you are a destroyer & i hope that God'll forgive you for all the sins you've done & the damage you've made. i'll never forgive you for what you've done to me & i pity your child & wife for having such a destructive father-husband to bear with throughout their lives."

with that, the gf & godsister left him in agonising pain, guilt & humiliation of his unforgiven sins.

constructive comments frm YAs:

frm ghafir..."Alia - your premise is a little too confusing for me. What you might want to do is write down the sequence of events that goes on in your story. Now decide on who your central character is and what is her/his objective. With this character, trace backwards - beginning from the ending and go the beginning and see the sequence of events and whether it makes sense and are the motivations real for you to tell the story. Ask youself at the end - SO WHAT? Why do I HAVE to tell this story? Why should you care about this person? Even if she is supposed to be evil - audience has to care about the character. Read Shakespeare's Othello - see how Shakespeare made the "evil" Iago so lovable. I digress."
EeEdOwRaH said...
"thank you for the directorial note there alia, but what we wantisnt how u would direct a story (treatment) but just u TELLING a story explaining what is the point of it, (wh- questions: answer them! why when where who how) pls look at a few examples of how the others have done it. and how they approach it: simple to the point, no frills. i think it's better you start catching up what u missed. red light alert!"
11:09 AM
Sums said...
"Right. Woman, u have got to get off this theme of yours. Every time there's something involving original ideas, yours always revolves around this kind of plot. Maybe there's no particular reason for this but just as a suggestion, maybe you could make your next idea totally unrelated to this kind of thing... it's just a suggestion. I don't mean to be nasty o insensitive o such but I'm just reiterating what's on a lot of ppl's minds. I hope u take it as constructive criticism."
12:01 PM
dcyc said...
"A personal story, but a little weak and too literal, especially the monologue. Good stuff: Asylum? Interesting unexplored point. Issues of betrayal, insanity, revenge, passion.Bad stuff: Shallow and too personal. Weak body, ending comes on too strong. Too emotional which weakens the story, in my opinion.Suggestions: Explore the story of the female, but let's move away from a specific incident to the issue at hand. It might be abuse of women or the frailty of the female psyche."
3:05 PM
wazhar said...
"I dont get Women either. But read this:NEWS STORY:Singapore girl wins Commonwealth essay prizeA 15 YEAR OLD Singaporean, competing against 16-18 year olds, has won thetop prize in a writing contest that drew 5,300 entries from 52 countries.In the annual Commonwealth Essay Competition, Amanda Chong of Raffles Girls'School chose to compete in the older category and won with a piece on therestlessness of modern life.Her short story, titled What The Modern Woman Wants, focused on the conflictin values between an old lady and her independent-minded daughter.'Through my story, I attempted to convey the unique East-versus-Weststruggles and generation gaps that I felt were characteristic of young people in my country,' said Amanda, who wants to become a lawyer and apolitician.Chief examiner Charles Kemp called her piece a 'powerfully moving andironical critique of modern restlessness and its potentially cruelconsequences'. The writing is fluent and assured, with excellent use ofdialogue.Amanda gets (S$1,590). A Singaporean last won the top prize in 2000, saidBritain's Royal Commonwealth Society, which has been organising thecompetition since 1883. Other winners included students from Australia,Canada and South Africa."==================================================================THE WINNING ESSSAY What the Modern Woman Wants By Amanda Chong Wei-Zhen

The old woman sat in the backseat of the magenta convertible as it careeneddown the highway, clutching tightly to the plastic bag on her lap, afraid itmay be kidnapped by the wind. She was not used to such speed, with tremblinghands she pulled the seatbelt tighter but was careful not to touch thepatent leather seats with her callused fingers, her daughter had warned hernot to dirty it, 'Fingerprints show very clearly on white, Ma.'Her daughter, Bee Choo, was driving and talking on her sleek silver mobilephone using big words the old woman could barely understand. 'Finance''Liquidation' 'Assets' 'Investments'... Her voice was crisp and importantand had an unfamiliar lilt to it. Her Bee Choo sounded like one of thoseforeign girls on television. She was speaking in an American accent.The old lady clucked her tongue in disapproval.'I absolutely cannot have this. We have to sell!' Her daughter exclaimedagitatedly as she stepped on the accelerator; her perfectly manicuredfingernails gripping onto the steering wheel in irritation.'I can't DEAL with this anymore!' she yelled as she clicked the phone shutand hurled it angrily toward the backseat. The mobile phone hit the oldwoman on the forehead and nestled soundlessly into her lap. She calmlypicked it up and handed it to her daughter.'Sorry, Ma,' she said, losing the American pretence and switching toMandarin. 'I have a big client in America. There have been a lot ofproblems.' The old lady nodded knowingly. Her daughter was big andimportant.Bee Choo stared at her mother from the rear view window, wondering what shewas thinking. Her mother's wrinkled countenance always carried the samecryptic look. The phone began to ring again, an artificially cheerfuldigital tune, which broke the awkward silence.'Hello, Beatrice! Yes, this is Elaine.' Elaine. The old woman cringed. Ididn't name her Elaine. She remembered her daughter telling her, how anEnglish name was very important for 'networking', Chinese ones being easilyforgotten. 'Oh no, I can't see you for lunch today. I have to take theancient relic to the temple for her weird daily prayer ritual.'Ancient Relic. The old woman understood perfectly it was referring to her.Her daughter always assumed that her mother's silence meant she did notcomprehend.'Yes, I know! My car seats will be reeking of joss sticks!'The old woman pursed her lips tightly, her hands gripping her plastic bagin defence.The car curved smoothly into the temple courtyard. It looked almostgarish next to the dull sheen of the ageing temple's roof. The old woman gotout of the back seat, and made her unhurried way to the main hall. Herdaughter stepped out of the car in her business suit and stilettos andreapplied her lipstick as she made her brisk way to her mother's side.'Ma, I'll wait outside. I have an important phone call to make,' she said,not bothering to hide her disgust at the pungent fumes of incense.The old lady hobbled into the temple hall and lit a joss stick, she kneltdown solemnly and whispered her now familiar daily prayer to the Gods. Thankyou God of the Sky, you have given my daughter luck all these years.Everything I prayed for, you have given her. She has everything a youngwoman in this world could possibly want. She has a big house with a swimmingpool, a maid to help her, as she is too clumsy to sew or cook. Her lovelife has been blessed; she is engaged to a rich and handsome angmoh man.Her company is now the top financial firm and even men listen to what shesays.She lives the perfect life. You have given her everything except happiness.I ask that the gods be merciful to her even if she has lost her roots whilereaping the harvest of success. What you see is not true, she is a filialdaughter to me. She gives me a room in her big house and provides well forme. She is rude to me only because I affect her happiness. A young womandoes not want to be hindered by her old mother. It is my fault.The old lady prayed so hard that tears welled up in her eyes. Finally, withher head bowed in reverence she planted the half-burnt joss stick into anurn of smouldering ashes.She bowed once more.The old woman had been praying for her daughter for thirty-two years. Whenher stomach was round like a melon, she came to the temple and prayed thatit was a son. Then the time was ripe and the baby slipped out of her womb,bawling and adorable with fat thighs and pink cheeks, but unmistakably, agirl. Her husband had kicked and punched her for producing a useless babywho could not work or carry the family name.Still, the woman returned to the temple with her new-born girl tied to herwaist in a sarong and prayed that her daughter would grow up and haveeverything she ever wanted. Her husband left her and she prayed that herdaughter would never have to depend on a man. She prayed every day that herdaughter would be a great woman, the woman that she, meek and uneducated,could never become.A woman with nengkan; the ability to do anything she set her mind to. Awoman who commanded respect in the hearts of men. When she opened her mouthto speak, precious pearls would fall out and men would listen. She will notbe like me, the woman prayed as she watched her daughter grow up and driftaway from her, speaking a language she scarcely understood.She watched her daughter transform from a quiet girl, to one who openlydefied her, calling her laotu; old-fashioned. She wanted her mother to be'modern', a word so new there was no Chinese word for it. Now her daughterwas too clever for her and the old woman wondered why she had prayed likethat. The gods had been faithful to her persistent prayer, but the wealthand success that poured forth so richly had buried the girl's roots and nowshe stood, faceless, with no identity, bound to the soil of her ancestors byonly a string of origami banknotes.Her daughter had forgotten her mother's values. Her wants were soephemeral; that of a modern woman. Power, Wealth, access to the best fashionboutiques, and yet her daughter had not found true happiness.The old woman knew that you could find happiness with much less. When herdaughter left the earth everything she had would count for nothing. Peoplewould look to her legacy and say that she was a great woman, but she wouldbe forgotten once the wind blows over, like the ashes of burnt paperconvertibles and mansions.The old woman wished she could go back and erase all her big hopes andprayers for her daughter; now she had only one want: That her daughter behappy. She looked out of the temple gate. She saw her daughter speaking onthe phone, her brow furrowed with anger and worry. Being at the top is notgood, the woman thought, there is only one way to go from there - down.The old woman carefully unfolded the plastic bag and spread out a packet ofbeehoon in front of the altar. Her daughter often mocked her for worshippingporcelain Gods.How could she pray to them so faithfully and expect pieces ofceramic to fly to her aid? But her daughter had her own gods too, idols ofwealth, success and power that she was enslaved to and worshipped every dayof her life. Every day was a quest for the idols, and the idols sheworshipped counted for nothing in eternity. All the wants her daughter hadwould slowly suck the life out of her and leave her, an empty soulless shellat the altar.The old lady watched her joss tick. The dull heat had left a teetering greystem that was on the danger of collapsing.Modern woman nowadays, the old lady sighed in resignation, as she bowed tothe east one final time to end her ritual. Modern woman nowadays want somuch that they lose their souls and wonder why they cannot find it.Her joss stick disintegrated into a soft grey powder.She met her daughter outside the temple, the same look of worry andfrustration was etched on her daughter's face. An empty expression, as ifshe was ploughing through the soil of her wants looking for the one thingthat would sow the seeds of happiness.They climbed into the convertible in silence and her daughter drove alongthe highway, this time not as fast as she had done before.'Ma,' Bee Choo finally said. 'I don't know how to put this. Mark and I havebeen talking about it and we plan to move out of the big house. The propertymarket is good now, and we managed to get a buyer willing to pay sevenmillion for it. We decided we'd prefer a cosier penthouse apartment instead.We found a perfect one in Orchard Road. Once we move in to our apartment weplan to get rid of the maid, so we can have more space to ourselves ...'The old woman nodded knowingly.Bee Choo swallowed hard. 'We'd get someone to come in to do the houseworkand we can eat out - but once the maid is gone, there won't be anyone tolook after you. You will be awfully lonely at home and, besides that, theapartment is rather small. There won't be space. We thought about it for along time, and we decided the best thing for you is if you moved to a Home.There's one near Hougang - it's a Christian home, a very nice one.'The old woman did not raise an eyebrow.'I've been there, the matron is willing to take you in. It's beautiful withgardens and lots of old people to keep you company! I hardly have time foryou, you'd be happier there.''You'd be happier there, really.' Her daughter repeated as if to affirmherself. This time the old woman had no plastic bag of food offerings tocling tightly to; she bit her lip and fastened her seat belt, as if it wouldprotect her from a daughter who did not want her anymore. She sunk deep intothe leather seat, letting her shoulders sag, and her fingers trace the whiteseat.'Ma?' her daughter asked, searching the rear view window for her mother. 'Iseverything okay?'What had to be done, had to be done. 'Yes,' she said firmly, louder thanshe intended, 'if it will make you happy,' she added more quietly.'It's for you, Ma! You'll be happier there. You can move there tomorrow, Ialready got the maid to pack your things.' Elaine said triumphantly,mentally ticking yet another item off her agenda. 'I knew everything wouldbe fine.'Elaine smiled widely; she felt liberated. Perhaps getting rid of her motherwould make her happier. She had thought about it. It seemed the onlyhindrance in her pursuit of happiness. She was happy now. She had everythinga modern woman ever wanted; Money, Status, Career, Love, Power and now,Freedom, without her mother and her old-fashioned ways to weigh her down ...Yes, she was free. Her phone buzzed urgently, she picked it up and read themessage, still beaming from ear to ear. 'Stocks 10% increase!'Yes, things were definitely beginning to look up for her...And while searching for the meaning of life in the luminance of her handphone screen, the old woman in the backseat became invisible, and she didnot see the tears.
5:41 PM

M.I.A. (updated)

2005-02-15T05:35:00.000+08:00

my activities which involves the arts scene (or theatre most likely):
january (saturdays & sundays): attend part time classes @ The National Arts Academy (aka ASK) in Theatre Tech. if there are no classes, i usually hang around @ the institute watching my friends running their rehearsals.

march (19-20/3/05): involve into my friend's final year project - lighting design (my fav.!). rumours have it performed @ Auditorium Jab. Perdana Menteri Putrajaya. hmm....
*UPDATE* Final year project "The MAgic Feather Boa" performing @ Auditorium JAbatan Perdana Menteri Putrajaya, 19-20/3/05. Times TBC.

april: involve into ASK final year student's project. Date(s) & time(s) TBC.

june: help another friend of mine with his project in ASK. TBC.

hmm...when am i suppose to get active back in VTC??? most probably after i've finished my short term classes in ASK, i hope.

bz,bz,bz....Zzzzz

2005-01-28T03:25:00.000+08:00

i need a calendar in this blog 2 keep track of my activities (do i hv any?!). v. occupied with work until i forgot 2 update this lonely, isolated blog of mine (isn't this supposed 2 be my e-journal 4 VTC???).

my rough activities outline (so i think it should b called):

December 04: managed to be employed into my new work @ HSBC Cyberjaya (wk1)
: managed to attend VTC's classes (wks 2,3)
: bz @ work (induction training) (wk 4)

January 05 : enrolled into ASK short course (wk1)
: just finished my induction & being deployed 2 USA dept (wks 2-4)
- need 2 adjust my body clock according 2 USA online time

sadly, i've got insufficient time 2 "indulge" myself actively in any theatre/arts performances due 2 my crazy schedule (i asked 4 it didn't i?). i'm still figuring things out & reshuffling my time, which i spend mostly sleeping 2 regain my energy/ momentum 2 put me into the working environment.

>sigh...< i just need some time to work out things...a proper paced one.

22/1/05 session

2005-01-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

ensemble work

man...

how to say this?
hm...ok, fine - i totally lost it! so much 4 the discussion w/my team mate azhar. i lost it for about a moment of eternity there. it seemed forever, since i've been too atached w/my new workplace. but anyways, not 2 broken hearted - all comments are taken positively, thanx 2 the members of the floor & victor's comments.

moral of the story?
all work & no play makes alia a zombie gal of the day (or night)!!
ppl, pls don't end up like me...PLEASE I BEG U!!!

new year resolution(s)

2005-01-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

i wish that this year i'll be more focused (i try to!), mature (hmmm...) & hopefully be a 1000x better than i was previous years ago (wow, that's quite sometime ain't it?)

btw...i was thinking of creating a new blog, most probably a poetry blog..got the idea this evening & perhaps get some people to contribute/share their poems on this particular blog. anyone can comment each other's piece.

i think i should create the blog NOW.

looking forward & not turning back

2004-12-10T17:46:00.000+08:00

final day of the week...

looking forward into the weekend, get good rest & prepare myself for the VTC session this Sat. man...i'm so goddamn tired slept in the bus all the way back home. oh, my revised/ revamped script - cut short to 2mins. so have to be straight forward then...gotta crack me useless brain to squeeze out its juices later today...need some rest before rewriting the whole goddamn thing.

contd...
11/12/04
interesting session. got most "confessions" out of everyone, including me. no more hiding frm ppl, nor afraid of anything else. most members are becoming more & more closer now,that's good.

"a moment of carthasis (really???)" retrieved frm youth.arm blog

2004-12-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

hello ppl!

1st of all, thanx paik yin, i think i should advertise my blog link right in this very post. it's http://babblesnramblings.blogspot.com
like ghafir, i'm also new into all these blogging stuff, so i guess i'll take it slowly & gently at a time..

hmm....how should i start??? after all the evaluation conundrums (shall i just ditch the word evaluation & just call it frantic self-check???) we all went thru (or maybe it was just me??i bet everyone's feeling the same ya), i realise tht it takes more than just plain jump off the cliff...it depends on each & every individual on how they confront/handle the situation (or tension, rather).as for me, i realise tht i can indulge into something very, very, VERY DEEPLY & i personally find it dificult 2 let go of things/memories until i realise i need 2 move on. i'm saying this because i felt a big pang after the individual "self-check". i also said this because i've always been paranoia of my own shadows so bad tht i feel rejected by the social in some peculiar manner-sort of 'i'm physically in the group but my brain/emotions don't belong in the group' feeling.

i did mention to square why i didn't do much acting during my "U" days. i told him i feel easily frustrated if i don't fulfill the character's "body & emotion"...well, here's my answer. i'm afraid to indulge/attach deeply into characters tht partially represents my TRUE emotions; i'm afraid 2 let all the skeletons in my closet out & i let them haunt me the rest of my entire life!! scary, isn't it?in my opinion, i feel tht it's high time 4 me to face the real me & carry on with my life...the evaluation was more than an evaluation 2 me; it's was a reality check on myself & my emotions. now i feel less paranoid...hopefully i'll be a better person in times 2 come.

btw, 4 ghafir & victor:
when rey said i really blew him away with my lines "Go wash yourself", wht did he mean by tht?? i'm just curious & i'm all ears 2 knw. pls. comment on tht, thanx.

ok, enough scaring everybody on this blog...sorry guys, but i just got 2 let these out coz this is wht i felt aft. the evaluation thingy... & my graditudes 2 sums & ghafir 4 "baby-sitting" me aft. the session...i can't express anything more than THANK YOU. & the chakra exercise held aft. the evaluation really helped me a lot into stabilizing my energy & emotions inside. i think if i've not participated in the exercise, i'll be more & more unstable, paranoid to the core coz i'll start 2 think wht others will think of me etc, etc, etc. & I"LL NOT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT TIL I GO NUTS!!!

>phew!!<

VTC comments on individual evaluation (updated)

2004-12-03T22:05:00.000+08:00

frm victor via email, Tue, 30 Nov 2004 09:23:51 -0800 (PST):
;-) nice to know there are ppl who appriciate our efforts...

ill be abroad for the weekend. so hope you guys get the best out of Ghfir's workshop.. ask all u can.. next week when we get together, lets review the evaluation and improve on all yer pieces..

also nice to know some ppl have started to open up.... we need more of that guys..

toodaloo....cherios .. and cornflakes..

frm square via youth.arm blog, 11/30/2004 07:41:57 PM:
"i did mention to square why i didn't do much acting during my "U" days. i told him i feel easily frustrated if i don't fulfill the character's "body & emotion"...well, here's my answer. i'm afraid to indulge/attach deeply into characters tht partially represents my TRUE emotions; i'm afraid 2 let all the skeletons in my closet out & i let them haunt me the rest of my entire life!! scary, isn't it?"
I think most people have a similar peeve. It's scary, no doubt, yet at the same time, its beautiful: because it is real. It is truth.I personally am quite the other extreme. I find it easier to indulge/attach into a character that represents what I am or feel. I love digging down to that bottomless pit that is my soul to reassure myself that it is not devoid of emotions, of feeling; that my soul does have nuances, be it anger, sadness, confusion or glee.
"in my opinion, i feel tht it's high time 4 me to face the real me & carry on with my life...the evaluation was more than an evaluation 2 me; it's was a reality check on myself & my emotions. now i feel less paranoid...hopefully i'll be a better person in times 2 come."
I am very glad that the evaluation brought upon such a carthatic effect for you - you're not the only one I'm sure. On another note, I am more glad to know that the YA program has so far been productive.Don't be too hard on yourself, but don't not be as well. If that makes sense. Frantic self-checks are part and parcel to improving yourself and getting better, as an actor, or as a person.

frm sums via youth.arm blog, 11/30/2004 07:31:39 PM:
i'll tell u this much. that bit rey was talking about... it felt so real. i got kinda creeped out in fact. but good job nevertheless.n ure welcome. anytime.

intro

2004-12-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

ok!

welcome to my blog. hopefully with this new web blog, i'm able to add & create new post just to update myself & perhaps others (if you guys are able to add some input as a reminder to me, i really appreciate 'em v.much).

any comments etc. are warmly welcomed here. & i don't mind if you guys kutuk me in my own blog. i'm beign dead honest here.

'nuff said. the rest is up to you ppl.

e-Me

Poetry blog updated

cubaann..

dilemma

AL-kisah...

renungan hari ini, ketika ini

new room

Cherish the moments

Yang mana satu pilihan kalbu: SPC, MUFY, IB...???

Merz 380 SE & Abahku

a dedication

facebook profile makeover using PageRage!

siapa sengal: Aku ke... ko?

what is happiness?

New year new look

Can Blood Type Determine Your Personality?

feature: MyFunCards- Best Friends

hanged/tied v1.0

hanged/tied?

Point of ponder

new blog!

intro

intro

(lazy) Update

Err...

Weekend/day(?) fun

Toast 'em! (2006 collection)

Video anyone?

Creating a new website

A bit of here & there...

FINALLY...!

iklaneka (english version): Basic Children's Theatre Workshop

photo(s) from "JANGAN"

Comments- APA Project: "JANGAN"

Simply adding photos as i've got no work to do (la la la la~)

"SEraBut" + it's KL Arts' Festival month!!!

UiTM MA students' trip to FRIM

Am I like that??? (characteristics shown according to the month u're born)

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

activities' updates

Resume???

ANNOUNCEMENT!

updates...Again!

contd of :)))

ramblings

:)))

My script - TAWAKKAL

activities update....>Sigh<

feast on this!!!

it's me again

as posted on http://alienatedme.blogs.friendster.com/li3naedme/

my activities updated...after a while :)

me...i'm back!! (but will i be long here???)

~~holiday~~

as posted on T.I.P

alia's activities (to be updated)

as posted on youth.arm blog 2/3/05

M.I.A. (updated)

bz,bz,bz....Zzzzz

22/1/05 session

new year resolution(s)

looking forward & not turning back

"a moment of carthasis (really???)" retrieved frm youth.arm blog

VTC comments on individual evaluation (updated)

intro

holiday